Shadows of the past...

Posted on Tue Jun 20th, 2017 @ 8:23pm by Splendora Sage

841 words; about a 4 minute read

ON:

Splendora walked into the healing centre. She greeted Lai'lira and then went into her office. Once the door was closed she sat down at her desk and hit the computer activation button. "Computer open a personal log. Dated today."

She waited and when she heard the chirp that signaled the log was recording she sighed and began to pour out her heart.

"What a day. This morning I said goodbye to my brother, Allan. He and I haven't spoken in years but these last few days we did a lot of it. We talked about our childhood, our challenges, and all the years we missed one another. I think that this was the first real conversation we had."

Splendora sat back and adjusted her sweater a bit before she continued, "He wanted me to go with him. He was worried. Now that my parents know where I am he was worried that not only would Holly be a thorn in my side but father would be on the first transport here."

She shook her head, "I just don't know what to think. Part of me is scared that he's right, part of me wants to go, then there is the part of me that is so sick of running. I was 16 when I ran away and I made my life, I studied, put myself through school, worked hard and now have my own business. Why should I let the shadows of the past haunt me?"

Splendora stood, walked over to the replicator and ordered herself a lavender tea. She blew on it before she took a sip and continued her log, "I went to see Tom after that, he was so....hurt that it had been days since we spoke. I feel horrible, I should have let him know but my brother surprised me. I'm glad I talked with Tom." She smiled at the memory.

"He kissed me today. He was so gentle yet so commanding in that one kiss. The only think I can't figure out is why he tends to pull away when he gets close. Like, take that kiss as an example. It was a whopper but then he pulled a way and started playing with a message PADD. I mean come on! Is he scared that I'd hurt him? Is it the shadow ops training? Is it past hurts? Part of me wants to analyze him. Well I wouldn't be a doctor if I didn't want to do that." She grinned, "He is... the one bright spot in my life. To be honest he's the only one that's truly taken care of me in a long time."

She sat down and heaved a sigh, "I'm so not good with these feelings. I don't know if I'm doing something wrong, or saying something wrong. I'm nervous... I suppose if I had a client come to me with the same...symptoms I'd say just take it slow and be honest with the other person."

She chuckled, "Truth be told I turn to mush when he's around. I've never been affected like this before."

Sipping her tea she looked at the clock and convinced herself that she had a bit more time until her next appointment which was an aromatherapy session. "I guess I better wrap this up soon. Anyway all in all it has been a busy day and it's just after lunch." As an after thought or a note to herself she added, "I had lunch at Dalar Café...Andorian food. Note to self, never, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, eat there again. I will be tasting the Andorian Galeri Fish burger for weeks. I'm serious. Bad food." She shuddered as she recalled the flavour.

"Well this will be a busy week. Tom has told me to go about my usual routine but it's hard. I just... well after the incident with Holly I've found that I have been feeling a bit down. Maybe this psychology conference that's happening this afternoon will cheer me up a bit." She thought a moment. "It's rather ....what term do the humans use," she closed her eyes trying to pull the word. "Oh yes, it's nerdish of me to say but I miss school and studies. Life was so much simpler then."

She looked towards her door for a moment and then smiled, "Oh one more thing. I am so glad that I hired Lai'lira. She has been a dream. She too fights her own demons of the past but she seems so much stronger then I do. I genuinely am learning a lot from her in how she handles things." Splendora stood up and hit the button on the computer. "Save log and file."

She waited until the log saved and then finished her tea. Grabbing her scented oils she headed for the aromatherapy room. This would be a long appointment and then she had to make her rounds in sickbay to help Braxton and then off to her conference. She wondered if she'd meet someone she knew there?

OFF.

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