Bringing up the past.

Posted on Fri Aug 2nd, 2019 @ 11:30am by Brigadier General Kaden Ross

2,774 words; about a 14 minute read

Mission: Episode 99 - Exordium / Epilogue
Location: Various
Timeline: MD01 0715 hrs

Freya lay in bed cuddled up in her husband's arms. Hope was sleeping peacefully but she'd soon be awake for her first feed of the morning. With her head resting on Kaden's chest, Freya's thoughts returned to the previous evening's discussion.

~ Flashback, 2130 hours ~

Kaden arrived home after having met Cameron with Ariana he would of liked Freya to been there but it was best she take care of matters she needed done with her patients and Hope. Ariana wanted to spend some time with Cameron so it was just Kaden and Freya alone for the time being which he didn’t mind. But seeing Freya’s clothes discarded all over the place on the floor caused him to frown picking up her clothes with one hand he walked into the bedroom. Seeing his lovely wife naked on the bed but sound asleep her skin still damp from what appeared to be from a bath. Shaking his head Kaden set the stuffed giraffe for Hope on the bed next to Freya’s head while he continued to pick up the last of her clothes. Walking over to the laundry he put them inside and began to remove his clothes and add them as well before taking silk pajama bottoms and head into the bathroom. Where he found the bathtub still full with a rather creamy blue substance that smelled like uttaberries.

Kaden reached over and started to drain the bathtub before pulling on his bottoms to join his wife in bed and call it a night. But as he left the bathroom he could see Freya roll her shoulder as if something was sore and bothering her. Looking around Kaden noticed the massage oil and grabbed it figuring maybe she could use a massage as it had been a while since he gave her one. Sitting on the side of the bed he took some of the oil rubbed his hands together and gently placed them on her bare back slowly rubbing them along the area where she rolled her shoulder. Her skin felt silky soft and looked rather youthful he could smell uttaberries in the air around him it was a lovely scent. Kaden had to admit though it was nice feeling her bare skin under his hands Freya had the perfect body of a beautiful angel almost he was lucky to have her as his wife.

Freya stirred, opening her eyes she looked sleepily at her husband. "Hey...I'm sorry I didn't mean to fall asleep!" She offered an apologetic smile. "It took a long..." She yawned. "..time to get Hope to sleep!" She looked across at the crib which was against the wall by her side of the bed, where baby Hope was now sleeping peacefully. "It'll be a few hours before she wakes for her next feed."

Kaden kept running his hands along Freya's back massaging as he did so. "Sorry, I wasn't here to lend a hand didn't expect to be meeting Ariana's new boyfriend." He motioned to the toy up next to his wife. "I got the baby something hope she will like it."

Freya lifted her head to look, seeing the cuddly toy Kaden had brought hone. "Oh Kaden it's lovely!" She had to remember to keep her voice low so she didn't wake Hope. "I think she'll love it."

Kaden slowly worked his way down Freya's back. "Thanks." He smiled keeping focused on the task at hand. "I hope you don't mind but I felt you could use a massage."

"Mind? Why would I mind?" She smiled. "I am pretty stiff, carrying Hope around and sitting in the same position for a while has made me pretty stiff and sore. You know how much I love your massages!"

Kaden smiled slowly working his way down Freya's lower back. "I hope so cause what ever that stuff you used in the tub is nice your skin feels amazing and the scent of uttaberries is wonderful." He said.

"It's the uttaberry bath cream my mother sent us, I just started a new bottle." She relaxed her muscles as Kaden massaged her back. "So what is Cameron like?"

Kaden paused from massaging Freya's back. "Seems like an okay guy so far just more time to know him." He laid down on the bed unsure what else to say.

"I'll look forward to meeting him sometime then" Freya grinned as she moved to cuddle up on Kaden's shoulder. "Is there something on your mind? You seem a little....preoccupied?" She looked at him curiously. "Is there something wrong?"

Kaden took Freya’s leg and pulled it to where it was draped over his waist running his hand up and down her thigh. “Freya, this might sound stupid but I need to know do you find me...um, pathetic sexually?” He asked clearly feeling stupid for asking.

"What!?" Freya looked at her husband dumbfounded. "Of course I don't! I love the way you make love to me and why wouldn't I find that physique of yours appealing? It's one of the reasons I fell in love with you in the first place." She reached out a hand and gently placed it on his chest above his heart. "Most of all I love who you are as a person, you have a heart of gold Kaden and I wouldn't change a thing about you!" She smiled as she looked into his eyes. "If I had any doubts, I wouldn't have married you. As it is I'm the happiest woman in the universe."

Kaden frowned there was something more on his mind. "But, I noticed you been acting very distant around me like I am doing something wrong not to mention the nightmares you been having. Freya I been racking my mind about this for a long time I know someone hurt you and you don't blame me for it but was there something else in your past that is bothering you something out there you regret having done maybe?" He asked.

"There isn't anything I regret, besides not being able to fight off the man who..." She paused. "Who raped me!" Her smile faded away. "I buried the memory so deep in my own subconscious that now I'm paying the price for it! I wake up screaming because I dream of what happened!! I see it over and over again and no matter what I do nothing changes it!"

Kaden rolled onto his side to face Freya better. "Well, what about your ex? Other than only telling me he was really lousy satisfying you sexually you never talk about him. I mean you just...avoid saying anything about him when I asked in the past why?" He asked as he looked Freya in the eyes.

"Why?" She looked into Kaden's eyes. "Because I didn't think you'd like it, that's why! How many women talk to their husband's about their ex? Wouldn't it make you feel fed up if I kept wittering on about Andy?" She sighed. "Besides there's nothing to tell. He was a...dominating, womanising cheat!!" She shook her head. "He spent all his time eyeing up other women, then expected me to want to make love to him every night whether I wanted to or not. We haven't seen each other in years until recently, but I see no need to be rude to him."

"Do you...regret he was your first man you made love to?" Asked Kaden nervously.

"I...I guess in some ways I do." Freya nodded. "I would much rather it was you."

"Well, if Ariana hadn't taught me what you Betazoid girls liked I doubt you want me as your first!" Kaden said in a rather teasing tone hoping it make Freya smile.

Freya grinned. "I'd have enjoyed you even if you were!" She ran her fingers across his chest. "All this talk of lovemaking makes a woman feel pretty worked up you know!" She grinned as she leant forward to kiss him.

Kaden smiled as he returned her kiss. "You know he was a total idiot to cheat on you I mean look at you! You are absolutely perfect there is not one thing on your body I want changed you got these lovely large perfectly round boobs I can't get enough of! You got a heart of gold beating inside and you love the fact you got a husband who has a bodybuilder physique. I mean at times I think you can put those holo porn stars to shame!" He said.

"Oh really?" Freya grinned as she looked at her husband. "It's all yours, and only yours!"

Kaden smiled as he kissed his wife passionately. "Oh, Freya, you certainly deserve a man like me that will love you and support you. Just laying here cuddling expressing our love just talking is always enjoyable. Your ex was a idiot to cheat on you and treat you like he did are all Betazoid males like that really?" He asked curiously.

"No, of course not" Freya shook her head. "Andy was always a free spirit, he liked to use his abilities in a way that was considered unwarranted. He'd get his own back on people by tekepathically reading them and telling everyone what they didn't want them to know. He was a bad influence and I'm glad to be away from him."

"I am glad you did get away having a lovely woman like you to come home to is amazing and I love how you are always open to teach me about your people. One of the reasons I joined Starfleet besides to kick hostile alien ass like my ancestors is people like you, Freya. If there was more people out there willing to share their cultures and respect other cultures learn see past others differences this galaxy be a better place. I don't care you are a alien to me I can really never see you as one you are just a very hot sexy woman that has...certain abilities than I can't do." Kaden told her.

Freya smiled. She loved the way her husband got carried away when he spoke about her and their relationship. "So you're still happy about having a baby? Knowing he or she would be half alien too?"

"Of course I am, I don't care that it will be half alien I just want them to take after you. Being a half breed don't bother me it never did unlike some people." Kaden replied. "Sometimes you act more Human than Betazoid you certainly liked me covering you in whip cream and chocolate syrup with sprinkles."

Freya giggled. "You know...with Hope asleep we do have some time to ourselves..." She grinned a wry grin. "

Kaden smiled as he ran his hand thru Freya's hair. "You know your ex is a real idiot to have not realized he had such a amazing gal like you. You are so beautiful you are kind, wise, and the reason that makes my life worth living." He ran his hand over Freya's belly. "I hope I can put a baby inside you for all the wonderful things you do to make me look forward to come home to you "

"I want to be pregnant with our baby Kaden" She smiled as she looked across at Hope. "It's going to break my heart when I have to say goodbye to her but knowing we could be having a baby of our own at some point will make all the difference."

“You know, I am not against adopting the baby if you want I mean yes I would want to hold off having a baby with you for a while so can focus on her but it is still an option if you want to.” Kaden said,

"I....I love Holly Kaden, with all my heart but I don't want to hold off on having our own baby! We've already started trying and I don't want to stop." She looked towards Holly. "Let's see what happens where the search for her family is concerned."

Kaden rolled up on top of Freya smiling running his hand down her naked body enjoying the feel of her beautiful soft skin. “It is only a option, my love, I know how much the kid has grown on you and she is grown on me too a little I just want my wife who I love so much to be happy.” He said before kissing her on the lips.

"I know you do" Freya returned his kiss with passion. " As long as I have you I'm happy."

Kaden rolled over onto his back pulling his wife on top of him to where she was straddling him. “I love you, especially when you are on top of me like this...showing off your lovely assets that I enjoy so much from this angle...” He grinned resting his hand on her bare rump. “You’re amazing, Freya, I am glad I satisfy you when we make love for a while I was worried I didn’t that you was getting bored of me.”

"Bored? Never!" Freya smiled as she leant forward to kiss him. "I love you and I will never get bored of you."

Kaden couldn’t help but smile and rub her cute rump with his hands enjoying his wife on top of him. “Freya, I am glad we had this talk it’s just you been acting very distant at times and I was afraid you was getting tired of me. But I think after having this talk you have re-ignited my fires of love for you again I want to spend my whole life with you give you the children you desire grow old with you. But I want you to know you can always talk to me about your past anytime it don’t bother me matter of fact I think of it as what not to do as your man.” He truly felt very happy this talk they was having actually great.

"Kaden I...I didn't talk to you because I didn't want to make you feel bad that's all. I know how much it hurts you talking about what happened to me. My nightmares all centre around it, over and over again. The only time I feel safe at night is when I'm cuddled up in your arms."

Kaden's smile faded as the air had just suddenly left the room. He didn't want to even think about Freya having been violated by another man yet alone how he reacted to it by treating her like some whore. "Oh...I guess you're right...how could I been so stupid. I was just so happy and caught up in the moment of joy we was having..." He trailed off unsure what to do Kaden turned his head.

Freya's smile faded. "I'm sorry I didn't mean..." She moved to get up, walking over to the window to look out. "I spoil the whole thing now didn't I?" She sighed. "I'm so stupid!!" She swung her hand knocking some trinkets onto the floor luckily nothing broke and Hope barely stirred at the noise. "I'm going for a shower!" With that she headed for the bathroom, once in there she slumped down into the corner with her head on her knees.

Kaden got to his feet paused to check on the baby and put the stuffed toy he made in her crib before walking to the bathroom. Seeing Freya on the floor sat down beside her wrapping his arm around her. “Hey, don’t get upset everyone makes mistakes it’s just I am very happy you still find me worth having around.” he rubbed her shoulder. “You certainly stoked the fires of love with me tonight...”

"I did?" She smiled a little as she lifted her head and looked at Kaden. She leant forward and gently placed a kiss on his lips, letting it linger for a few moments before their lips parted.

“Of course! You made me very happy tonight...” Kaden replied. “Besides, I like coming home seeing you naked.”

"You always did like that!" She grinned. "How's about we get out of here?" She held out her hand as she got to her feet, taking Kaden by the hand she lead him back to bed where they could spend some time making love together before Hope awoke for her next feed.

~ Current Time ~

Freya smiled to herself, it seemed their talk had done some good as she'd slept all night, with the exception of Hope's feeding times, without a single nightmare. She just hoped it stayed that way.

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