Reflecting

Posted on Sun Oct 9th, 2016 @ 10:42am by Splendora Sage
Edited on Sun Oct 9th, 2016 @ 10:43am

708 words; about a 4 minute read

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Splendora looked out the window at the passing stars. She and Merah were having a great time talking and she felt bonded and close to the woman. She felt like Merah was more of a sister to her then her own sister. She managed to get a bit of privacy and pulled out her Log PADD.

“Begin personal log.”

She heard the chirp and began, “Personal log, Splendora Sage. It’s been a couple of days since we left the station. I feel….tired and a bit down. Work is good, Lai’lira tells me that my calendar is fully booked. I am so glad I hired that girl. She is organized and she really is a joy to have around. She hasn’t had an easy life and I wish to help her overcome her past because I see what she can be in the future. She has so much capacity to love and be loved yet…the rejection of the past will be difficult for her to overcome. She has a great heart. I was touched about her story of the wolf man marine. The man who she thought was sad and lonely and she just dragged T’Lar, the station XO, to sit with him.” Splendora smiled as she rose to go to the replicator and get a glass of juice.

Splendora sat back down and continued, “I met the Marine and he…does have a sadness but being Betazoid knows how to block me. Although…He does have an interest in Lai’lira and she in him but I don’t think that either has figured it out just yet. Speaking of love I think that the Hurds will be just fine. I can’t wait to get back to them and see how they are doing. I think that they will be okay. The love between them is so strong.”

Splendora sighed a bit frustrated, “See love seems to be all around. I’m overloaded with couples in love. Even Dr. Hades has fallen for the CMO. Everyone seems to be in love and sometimes I ask myself when will it happen to me? I mean I’ve been in love but the man never seems to fall in love with me. I always wind up with the broken heart…it’s like meant to love but not be loved.”

Splendora looked out the window and smiled sadly, “There is Tom…I find that I do have an interest in him but…I feel like he has none in me. I tried to … I don’t know I asked him to dinner. He was helping me with that box thing … that has caused so much trouble. I was going to thank him for his help and he kind of put it off saying something like let’s see if I can help or something. Anyway a clear sign, I’m not interested. Then he helped with the Bolian and I’m sure that just put him off further. Making him probably think that this chick is more trouble than she is worth.”

Splendora shifted on the sofa chair, “I…think that maybe at this point I should just give up on the whole love thing. I mean many people live without it just fine right? I’ve got my friends and co-workers and that should be enough.” She closed her eyes a moment. “Should be but I still want to be held, to be cared for. I’m so tired of being strong. I’ve been strong since I ran away from home. I just want to…have someone hold me. Someone tell me it will be alright. Someone to just once, take care of me.”

She sighed again. “End log, delete last paragraph and file.” She stood and walked over to the little bed. She had left her dog with Merah on the little bridge area. Splendora decided to rest. It had been a rough transition for her to her new home and a horrible few days prior to Merah and her leaving the station.

Sleep came to her easy that night but it was neither restful nor peaceful.

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Dr. Splendora Sage (PNPC)
Business Owner
Starbase 400
(PNPC played by Hades)

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