Just Thinking, Wondering...

Posted on Sat Jun 18th, 2022 @ 1:20pm by Admiral Deela T'Lar

507 words; about a 3 minute read

Stardate...

Stardate, hmm, why bother? The days just seem to blur all together. We're back on the station and the kids are asking about Jack. I don't know what to tell them. The search for Jack has been uneventful. No one seems to know what happened to him. The universe is vast. He could be anywhere.

I have everyone I know looking for him. I have called in all my favors and yet, no one knows where he might have gone. I can't help to wonder if he's being held captive, hurt or...dead. Seems like that is my worldly fate, to be husbandless. At least I have my kids but they are growing up so fast. In the blink of an eye, they will be gone too. It's hard to believe that in two more years, Brandon will be going to Starfleet Academy.

Oh Jack, how I miss you...

Leads...there are none. There is no record of him going anywhere. Jack just wouldn't take off to somewhere and not notify me. Someone must have taken him but for what reason? I have a list of names of those he knows and who may have had some ill feelings towards him. One in particular, a Nyssa Rhodes whom he knew at the Academy. Then there is his ex, Talia Deveraux. The list gets longer as I delve into his life.

I am having DaSilvor check into section 31 as well. Jack had some dealings with the Borg as well. The possibilities are endless. With a past like his, it could be anyone. Oh my God! He's like a magnet for trouble.

I usually can look at a problem and approach it with logic. I always thought myself to have an analytical mind as well. But when it comes to Jack, it all goes out the window. My father would be so disappointed in me.

Okay, enough of that! Self pity...it's such an ugly look on me. So why do I wear it so well?

I am thinking of taking some of my leave and search for Jack myself. But I have my kids to think about. I could take them with me but if he WAS captured by one of his enemies, I could not expose my kids to that. I can't ask Alex to watch my kids. Brandon may be 16 but he isn't old enough to take care of his sister for a long period of time and i couldn't ask him to do so either.

I will wait. Not sure for how long. Once they exhaust all of their leads, then, I will consider going out myself. Speaking of the kids. I best be off. I promised them that we'd do something on the holodeck. They've been cooped up for a while now and Raivyn is getting antsy just sitting around all day.

Jack? I will find you. Even if I have to go to the ends of the world to do so. I need to break this husband losing streak.

End personal log.

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